New me

Doing some serious soul searching this summer. Time to be the person I want to be. 

Passing the time:

 This sums up pretty much all I've been up to this past springbreak. Maybe next year I'll go on some tropical vacation of my dreams. 

Feelings:

Finally made a good choice in giving my heart to someone.
So far so good with 2013, can't complain a whole lot.

Photo: Autumn.

 

All taken by a Cannon T3i.

Photo:

I know this to be true. I'm getting another soon, I'll have a lot before my heart stops.

Something I wrote.

To find happiness in this terrible place, all I have to do is look for your face.
Left in a world with nothing to lose, everyone searching for someone to use.
Desperation filled the air, being here alone with my thoughts I just couldn't bear.  Searching for a soul that's lost in the midst of it all, and here you are trying to break down my wall.

The broken glass from the windows of my past is what lets the cold air through, 
here I am trying to hold everything together with glue.

My dear your intentions have never been so clear, so I'm letting you into a place that I don't like to go near.
And I hope you don't prove me right cause I've been thinking about you a lot these past couple nights.
When everything was said and done, it looks like you got the upperhand and have won.

 The road to freedom was the hardest to travel, many times over my heart started to unravel.
Blindly choosing to turn left or right, there were many times I nearly lost sight.
Of it all, of it all, of it all.
 

There were many times I nearly lost sight, of it all.

Merely alive and barely breathing, some nights I'm just left heaving.
Two bodies as one, your breath on my skin, it's taking everything in me not to run.
Settled by fear, don't worry darling you have me here.
 

Sometimes I let my mind wonder, how is it I don't crack from all the pressure they've put me under.

Head down low, hand in yours, I feel like a domino falling row upon row.
Familiar feelings filling my soul, but this time it's different because I'm not whole.
Someone used to occupy my heart but, with the damage they left I don't know where to start.
No, I'm not sure where I should start, with trying to tell you, you're winning my heart.

Thought:

I think sometimes we all feel a little lost and confused. Maybe angry and sad.
I love being in the water, it helps me clear my mind, I always feel like I can float away from everything when I'm swimming and how everything is so free.